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i'm holding on to a total mixed feelings tonight. so mixed up that you will never understand and i will never be able to explain. not really into detailed kind. its just..... merely on the surface. i will get over it soon. maybe by tmr before work. hahahahha. i feel like a fool. totally.

so thats how the story goes. er actually its just a sentence. yes and thats...... i got to know that........ that eyecandy at work got a girlfriend. oh yes. guess alllllllll of you that know about this must be laughing real hard as you read this right?!?!?!?!??!?!? awwwwwwww. i was laughing at myself too. from just now after dinner. OH MY GOD!!! hahahhahahah. see my dreams shattered into pieces tonight. i'm quite sad actually. to be true. hahahahha(this is a faked set of laughs)haahahaaahaha..........

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ok i will wake up from my dreams(should have long ago). everything ended. TONIGHT!!!! aghhhh i'm nuts. and i know this post sounded really stupid. hahaha. yes i feel like laughing too.

omg and now.... i've just faced another piece of reality which i've been running away since a few months ago. don't really concern me directly la actually but still, i can't believe i'm hearing all these from my cousin. don't understand a thing. i'm just questioning, why.......... and whats happening........?




sometimes its quite difficult to live.
sometimes its hard.
and behind all those smiles you see everyday,
we never stop to look at the tears hidden behind them.

everytime on the verge of crying, i asked myself a question.
"have i ever start pursuing for what i wanted?"
well i got the answer no. and so, i deserved all these. yes.



happy birthday boon.