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there’s a visitor in the house but i refuse to get out of my room to address him. its better to save all the ‘hi uncle’ shit. oh, he just left. good thing, cause i can finally go out for a cup of water! 
ms ng was being extra naggy, like always, in this afternoon’s revision lecture. idk, but i think she is seriously getting old and its showing. oh god, don’t even want to think about next semester’s entrepreneurship with her. she is really long winded. 
alright, so its friday and its sort of like the last day of school for us. with the years passing by, i can no longer feel the joy ‘last day of school’ used to bring. the worries and stress in between managed to overshadow all the joy. i’m such a worrying freak. so, instead of joining the rest, i chose to spend the afternoon at the library, have a piece of watermelon before heading home, alight 3 stops before on purpose to walk past the row of provision shops near my place before reaching home. i would have gone shopping alone if i have money but sadly, i don’t. so somehow, sitting in the library and walking past those provision shops make me feel the way i wanted – alone but not lonely. i certainly enjoyed the peace. *sings cnblue’s “i’m a loner”*
and after reading Tuesday with Morrie which made me cry so hard at the last chapter(cause the old professor died and its really sad), i’ve decided to start doing sth about my life and is inspired to be a better person, inside and maybe, out(obtaining euphoria is my lifelong goal). so yesterday, after feeling that i should start with the guitar that has been resting in the storeroom for years, i finally retrieved it and managed to find a whole series of really good guitar tutorial lessons on youtube. got my nails cut and after practicing 3 chords and a simple song for a few hours, i got really sore fingers(up till now). but i was pretty satisfied cause i could play a song heheheheheehe. it wasn’t like this when i was having lesson with mr james a few years ago.

ok, its nine and im going off for tv now. i didn’t realise that kyu’s ost has been on repeat for so long, i can drown in his voice forever. seriously can’t wait for january to reach(that’s only if ss3 is still on). ok, have a good sleep tonight!
  hehehehe always so earnest, this guy.